The Void

Evening comes and three kids have been prayed for and kissed into the land of nod. The dishwasher is emptied and wet clothes hung out to dry. The kitchen floor has been swept. And swept again. And again. Emails have been sent, texts written, phone calls made. Dinner has been made and cleared away.

Rich and I face-time. He’s one side of the world and I’m another. He’s yawning as he starts his day and I’m yawning as I end mine.

And then comes The Space: that time at the end of the day when the husband is away and the kids are in bed and the to-do-list is ticked off.

The Space comes.

There’s no running away or hiding behind jobs that need to be done or kids that need to be fed.

No. None of that. In The Space my comfortable cloak of busyness is hung up. And it’s just me.

And sometimes it feels more like a void than a space. You see, space is roomy and full of hope and potential. But a void? A void is a little different: a void feels empty and barren. A void can feel desolate. It can feel like a never-ending, bottomless pit. It’s unknown.

Thoughts surface and fears begin to rise; those things that would normally be suppressed by the busyness of life. And in The Void I have to face those inner doubts and inner insecurities that can so easily be pushed down by my close friend Busyness, and by the reassurance of a loving husband and friends.

And so I realise that this void that comes when Rich is away is actually God’s grace to me. And when He offers grace to me I’d be foolish to turn it down, though it may seem easier to do so. His grace is to show me how to fill The Void: how to take captive the rumbling whispers in my heart; the lies that are spoken in the darkness.

His grace is to show me how to re-write that script with the words of truth that He gives me.

And so The Void is God’s hidden gift to me. It’s His reminder to me that I am His and He is mine.

The Void is the place where my deepest fears arise, where the storm comes, the wind and the waves howl around me. And The Void is the place where I am reminded that He merely has to say “Be Still” and the wind and the waves obey.

The Void is the place of exchange: the place where I enter feeling fearful and leave remembering who He is. It’s the place where I exchange fear for faith, doubt for certainty, despair for hope and defeat for victory.

It’s the place where I remember His faithfulness to me and to His people. It’s the place where I stand on the testimony of what He’s done in the past, and remember His promises for the future.

It’s the place where I remember that He is faithful.

The Void is the place where I lean in and look for the gain. It’s the place where I remember that my hope, my peace and my identity is not found in Rich, or anyone, or anything, else. Those people and things may be a channel of grace to me. But they are never the source.

A channel merely carries what comes from the source.

And so God’s hidden treasure to me when Rich is away is to gently remind me that it’s His voice that defines who I am.  He reminds me that He fills The Void and takes me into a spacious place filled with expectancy, hope and certainty.


 What’s God’s hidden treasure for you today?

Advertisements

8 thoughts on “The Void

  1. The Void…………. I have become greatful for the times of Quiet void. Time we can re-focus our intimacy with our creator. Time we can ask for wisdom for relationships, and ask for creative ways to reach out.

    From back here in Ohio, you and your faithful family, and the story that you are living and making for Christ, are so very inspiring . May He continue to give you strength, power, and peaceful joy, knowing HE is smiling at who you are in Him and for Him. Lare, Oregon, Oh. Hope Community Church of the Nazarene, formerly First Church Of the Nazarene, Oregon, OH.

    Thanks! Larry Avery

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Thanks Anna
    your perspective and ability to sense what God is whispering and doing is really helpful and feels very authentic… helps me gain insight into The Void times that I experience and to embrace Jesus in them rather than fill them with Busyness.

    Thanks too for sharing Rich with us. Hard to start to say the impact that Jesus is having here in Aus through Rich and the team that come out…

    Liked by 2 people

    • sorry for my delayed reply… I was so encouaged to read this. I love hearing the stories from Rich of what God is doing in Oz but it’s somehow even more special when I hear what God is doing from an Ozzie perspective! Thank you Mark!

      Like

  3. good word Anna for the many mums who are in your position. Who and what defines us needs to be both known and practiced. May really God bless and keep you in your voids.

    Like

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s